[ That's kind of soothing to see. Someone angry on his behalf for a trauma nearly half his age ago ... He appreciates it, really. So would his younger self probably, if he could see through the haze of misery he'd been in. That's what makes him decide to tell the final piece of the story after all. ]

Mmm. It was ... shattering. My bodyguard had to pry the knife out of my hands and hold me down until the impulse passed.