[ Very, very bad. Good to know he doesn't have to explain that part, even if it does make him want to hunch into a ball. But he's telling this story, dammit, and he's determined to get to the end of it. ]

Yes, on both counts. I did prepare a version with the footage intact but ... [ He'd rationalized every step over that precipice. Reasons why it might pass Simon's scrutiny. Reasons why he needed his career intact. ] I submitted a falsified report. For that reason, I was discharged. And forbidden from returning to the Dendarii.

[ A medical discharge - one last act of mercy from Simon. And he could have gone back to the Dendarii at any point, if he'd really wanted to. But that would have been a one-way trip. ]

I'd had two lives up until that point. Now I have neither.