lovernotafighter: (Eyes up here asshole)
Lavernius Tucker ([personal profile] lovernotafighter) wrote in [community profile] forbarrayar 2017-05-07 04:47 pm (UTC)

[I don't know if she ever was.

And wasn't that depressing? It would be like saying that about Carolina, Carolina who at one point put a gun against his head. There was a weight there, and Tucker didn't say anything because he didn't know what to say, just looked at Wash with a wrinkled forehead as he tried to think about what he was talking about.

Fuck. This shit was heavy.]


Look, it's just different. [And he wouldn't let Wash blame himself for this, he wouldn't. it wasn't his fucking fault!] You weren't there for most of it, for the weeks we were split up and with the News. You saw him for, like, a second before you "Freckles Shaked" it all up, and then I was left with him. I had dinner with him in the mess, I trained with him, I ran missions with him, and I tried to beat him so I could be allowed to come save you. I spent a lot more time with him than you did, than anyone, so I can only blame me.

[Well, and Grif and Simmons and Caboose. Kimball. Everyone else. Fuck. Shut up, Wash.[

My instincts suck sometimes. I didn't want to trust you at the beginning, I got people killed while I was looking for you, and I let Felix in. I just...hate it.

[I just hate being wrong.]

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