[ As far as Wash is concerned, things scar and numb, but they never quite heal. Even before Epsilon, he's always had a long memory, clung to hurts and slights far longer than most people would, and now, well. Now he literally remembers the pain, just as bright, just as fresh. ]

Different thing to fuck around for information than to consistently be with one person and pretend at being in love.

[ Not asked directly, but the question's implicit, could you actually do that? ]