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For Barrayar mods ([personal profile] barrayarmods) wrote in [community profile] forbarrayar2017-05-20 11:24 am
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[ may ii log: we're a broken people living under loaded gun ]

Who: Everyone
What: Victory quickly curdles when the Cetagandans go nuclear -- literally.
When: May 18th - 31st
Where: the Barrayaran camp, the Cetagandan base, Riverfall Village
Warnings: TBD

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barrayar
The jubilant atmosphere in the Barrayaran camp doesn't die out, but it does shift back into the sense of intense focus on their next task, their exhilarating victory driving them forward. The attitudes toward the outsiders are gradually lightening -- the fact that two of them rescued Princess Sonia has gone a long way toward fostering good will. While Prince Yuri and Colonel Vorvolk are still staunch their position of mistrust, Dorca is now openly showing support for Piotr's decision, tipping the balance of politics among the top brass -- which always has a trickle-down effect. But it's a slow spread, and while some of the other soldiers have turned entirely grateful to the outsiders for their part in the attack, for most of them they're only just starting to tone down the hostility. But the shift in atmosphere, however gradual, is clear: the outsiders are starting to fall back into favor with the soldiers.

Vorvolk himself still remains unconvinced, and in the downtime between briefings, can be seen frequently in conference with Piotr, and they don't often look to be in agreement. The fact that the body of Falco Vorkalloner, one of the more vocal anti-outsider dissidents, was found dead shortly before the attack only throws things into hotter contest: although as far Lakshmi and Sisko, the ones to discover the body, reported to him, it appeared to be an accidental death. Colonel Vorvolk remains suspicious considering the timing, but a funeral for Vorkalloner complete with death offerings is held on the 19th. If one is positioned correctly in certain circles, too, one may overhear more talk about the increasingly tense succession politics – talk, say, about finding Yuri a new wife so he can produce another heir. Yuri, perhaps surprisingly, seems reluctant, and harshly bites off the subject every time it comes up.

Lapis has requested a note be delivered to Sonia through the villagers, and Sonia rushes to show it to Piotr. While the gene therapy trials weren't news – and subsequently dire conclusions could be drawn from it – any deals with Jackson's Whole are news, and dangerous at that. If the Cetagandans release the outsiders' gene complexes to the Jacksonians, they might as well be releasing them into the wild: there'll be no hope of permanently recovering them. Piotr is going to want the his handlers to pass on this information to their informants so that they can keep an eye out for any new developments or ways to sabotage the deal.

Scouts are sent to Vorkosigan Vashnoi to further coordinate their efforts with the civilian underground resistance in the city and move on to the next step in their plans to retaking the city. The attack on the base had been meant to force Zahal to withdraw some of his troops from the city, and it works – except that according to Barrayaran intelligence, by May 21st he has recalled the entire occupying force from Vorkosigan Vashnoi.

At approximately three o'clock in the morning on May 22nd, the night sky goes ablaze with a sudden flash of light. The sound of the explosion doesn't follow for another minute, but even at night, the mushroom cloud is clearly visible from the mountains. And even at night, given the vantage point, it's clear that this means only one thing: the Cetagandans have just bombed Vorkosigan Vashnoi.

There's nothing left of the city -- the Cetagandans went nuclear on it, obliterating the city and all its inhabitants and leaving nothing but an irradiated crater behind. Morale in the camp takes a sharp U-turn after the total destruction of the district's capital. Not only were they on the verge of successfully retaking the city, it's the capital of the district, and a symbol of hope for many of the soldiers, especially those from the district -- or it was, anyway. Now there's nothing left of it. Everything they've been working toward for the last few months, everything they've struggled toward -- simply gone.

The soldiers all react in different ways. Most of them are furious, angry like a wounded beast, despairing but only more determined to eliminate the Cetagandan threat to them. Many of them weep openly in grief or despair -- lost family and friends, a lost home -- and some are simply stunned into numbness at so dramatic an escalation. The Barrayarans are badly thrown, and they need to regroup before Cetagandan strikes again.

The unabridged mission results can be found here.

cetaganda
Thanks to the Barrayarans' extremely effective sabotage, there's no hope of getting the main or backup power generator back in operating oder until their next supply drop arrives with reinforcements -- still weeks away. Most of the base is without power, which also means no running water, no refrigeration, and no way of recharging their weapons' power packs. As much is being done by daylight as possible, including pre-preparing meals -- still a mix of MREs and fresh food, but especially the latter, as they have no way of keeping it from spoiling, but when they run out of fresh food from the Grow Labs, the base's denizens are stuck with MREs and rather unpalatable ration bars. Thankfully, the water treatment plant has a considerable buffer, so while they may not have running water, they do at least have some manually retrievable potable water for the time being. Hey folks, if you ever wondered what it's like for the Barrayarans roughin' it up out there in the mountains, here is a tiny fraction of what that's like.

On the night of the 20th, Diya is discovered dead. According to Sei, she was attacked and killed by Natasha -- for what exact reason, Sei cannot claim to know, but this clearly marks Natasha as a dangerous entity. Natasha flees the base that night in a hijacked groundcar, leaving no one to fast-penta and no witness but Sei and Ba Talim, and -- even though it would be an affront to suggest it -- haut and ba are immune to fast-penta. An elaborate but solemn funeral is held for Diya on the 21st. It's about what you've probably come to expect of Cetagandan functions, but the mood is distinctly different. There is still a lot of poetry reading. When not in uniform, Zahal now dresses in mourning colors.

The one building that does still have power is the building containing the medbay and gene labs, powered by the secondary backup generator that clearly exists for that express purpose: if all else fails, protect the interests of the Star Crèche. However, even with the base's population reduced, there are still thousands of people who need power, and Zahal is in a heated argument with the haut over redirecting power from the secondary backup generator to other vital base functions. The secondary backup generator does not possess the capacity to power the entire base, but some of its power could definitely be rerouted to select other areas. By May 21st, the barracks and mess have limited power -- just barely enough to get running water and the most basic of kitchen functions running. A little bit of power is rerouted to one of the undamaged research buildings for continued research on the Star Gate Project, since it's of nearly as much interest as the genetics research.

By May 21st, Zahal has recalled the entire occupying force from Vorkosigan Vashnoi. This means a couple thousand soldiers have now returned to the base, but they're still badly undermanned. Reinforcements are slated to arrive along with a supply drop at the start of next month, but until then, it's time to make do. Some of the repairs can at least be started manually, so any off-duty soldiers and willing and able bodies will be asked to lend a hand to start fixing up some of the base now that it's more cleaned up.

At approximately three o'clock in the morning on May 22nd, the night sky goes ablaze with a sudden flash of light. The sound of the explosion doesn't follow for another minute, but even at night, the mushroom cloud is clearly visible from the upper perimeter of the base. And even if you don't have the vantage point to see it for yourself, it doesn't take long for word to get around: the Cetagandans have just bombed Vorkosigan Vashnoi.

Apparently Zahal was able to pull together enough resources to drop a nuclear bomb on the city, utterly destroying it and everyone in it. Judging by the surprise of the rank and file, this was not a long-planned maneuver, but a direct response to the Barrayarans' attack. It isn't the sort of measure they're supposed to resort to so quickly -- the city itself is a valuable resource, and it gave them leverage -- but Zahal is furious.

Between Diya's sudden death and the bombing, the atmosphere around the base is suddenly tense and uneasy. While the Cetagandans have hardly felt threatened by the exotics, after Natasha's supposed recent actions, there's a growing mistrust. The victory might go to the Cetagandans, but it doesn't really feel like it.

The unabridged mission results can be found here.
shri: (» the storm of the unknown)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-22 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ She cannot stand it, she cannot stand the self-destruction. Him, her husband, Galahad, Byerly, Tesla. She can trust them all, but except in their miseries. They are fools and she is devoted to him and to them and she won't let him sit here all night doing that. ]

You don't have enough hair for that many dead.

[ She lets her fingers dig in harder to that blade until the blood does start to run. Between her fingers and over his where he holds it. Swallows, blinking slowly in that edge of pain. ]

Don't take away what I so fondly wish to have between my fingers, my love.
dendarii: (TW_S1_E13_0418)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-22 11:09 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hell. He can't bear to hurt her, even in this. So he finally lets go of the blade. Lets her take it, if she likes. ]

I can spare some for the dead. They have nothing at all now.
shri: (» our lives worth fighting for)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-22 11:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's cruel to use it, but she is ever good at taking what she has and wielding it. She doesn't have that kind of sympathy left.

When he stops, relinquishes it, she flips the blade over in her hands, contemplating it for a minute and no - she is being selfish, rocking her weight back onto her heels to give him some space and turning back to the fire. Her hands reaching up to her long braid, heavy down her back, and grips it tightly in the same bloody fingers.
]

Keep the rest for the woman you call yours, she is selfish. [ I need you more. Sits in the space under her tongue. ] But can spare some herself, I think.

[ But nor did she want him alone in thinking she did not understand, that he was alone in this, that he could not share - I have not done as a widow should, she had told Vishnubhatta. She had not cut all of her hair off, dressed in white, taken her husband's ashes to the Ganges. Hadn't gone quietly into mourning and emptiness. Hadn't stepped away from public life. There was too much for her to do that, and just like that, she never did it. Like not knowing how to take to a task that one had not been taught, nor did she know how to mourn and stared blank into the fire for a minute longer. Like a language she could not speak. Or a poem she knew the ending of but not the first line.

She lived ever long in actions, not words.

Her fingers lift, lining blade to braid and she begins to saw half a foot up from the end of it. The long strands begin to snap, one by one. Some grey, some dark, all of them thick and fall away loosely. Started now, must see it through, and she only stares into those flames as she begins to saw away her hair.
]
dendarii: (TW_S1_E13_0418)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-22 11:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ As she begins to cut, Miles' eyes go wide. A little horrified - he does love her long hair - but utterly grateful too. For her to do this for him ... He bows his head a bit, humbled by her gift. Tears flickering at the edge of his eyes, which he wipes away clumsily. ]

Thank you, my lady. The dead will be honored by a gift such as yours.
shri: (» tragically we fall like the arrows)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-22 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It is not quick work, dragging the blade, slippery with her own blood, back and forth over it, feeling the tension pull and then break as she works. When he speaks, gives his mouth, she opens her mouth to reply, to say something - don't perhaps, I do not know what else to do, I have never known, feels regrets and death and too much time, and the little comforts that are the only things worth living for, in the face of it. Don't look to me for more, I cannot say no to you.

Instead, she says nothing, her mouth closing again as she turns into the fire again, warm on her skin now that the weather didn't require so many layers. She swallows, readjusting her grip and nods instead without anything else to say, she turns back to the heat washing over her face. Doesn't look at him and in quiet soundless murmurs, she says prayers, her own - the ones she had told Tucker, and says now. Long unending mantras that she remembers, still, and never finds a voice to them often anymore. The meaning of them is solemn, remembered, do not matter so much to Gods, but to the soul. The only thing she dares take solace anymore.

And in that monotonic reverence, little by little, her hair is cut through. Thick as a rope, half as heavy, she holds it up to him for his hand to take. A lifetime there, and yes, it is fitting, but not because she is Queen. But for them, she does, what she could never do for her own.
] Go on, they are your people, not mine.

[ He will know his own words to say, with them. ]
dendarii: (solpadeine112)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-22 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He does so gently, turning the braid over in his hands for a moment. Inspecting the fine array of dark and gray hairs both, letting his fingers drift gently over the joined threads. But the gift is not for him. He cannot hold it too long.

Instead, he turns back to the fire. There really should be incense, and an offering bowl ... Surely there will be a real funerary offering in camp later on. But he can't wait. Not when the blood of his district is on his incompetent hands. Carefully, slowly, he arrays the braid in the hot ashes, until it catches fire from the sheer heat. The smell is unpleasant, as all burning hair is. But that is half the point of such an offering, isn't it? The acridity among all else. ]


I am sorry not to have served you better. [ He murmurs the words, lifting his gaze to the coil of smoke going up from her braid. ] There was much I could have done that I did not do. All I can offer you now is rest. What little solace there is in a quick death.

[ And then he repeats the same, first in Russian, then Greek and French. ]
shri: (» we hear them run)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-24 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ She loses his words in the Russian and Greek, follows as much as she can in the French. Her eyes lowered after it, watching the end of her braid go up in smoke. Threading smoke and curling and crinkling with the heat, before it burned. That awful smell she's too familiar with - not just in butchery, but in living in the worst sort of conditions for years.

She stays seated until he's done before she unfolds herself to stand. Coming up to stand beside him. The back of her hand so brushing against his, but otherwise, she doesn't tug to him. Asked enough, for one night.
]

My people don't believe the soul is bound eternally to the flesh. Life is just clothes, to be discarded at the end of one life and donned in the next, and in birth... we find those dear to us, again.
dendarii: (TW_S1_E13_0418)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-24 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ After a moment, he grips her hand with his. Weakly at first, then more tightly. ]

I found it more to be a sunless sea. Our sparks are easily swallowed up.
shri: (» we will never be bought or sold)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-24 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ She grips as tightly back, though her gaze stays forward. ]

I cannot believe that, can you?

[ Byerly had called her an optimistic. Spat it like an insult and perhaps he was right too. Because it was true, she was. Fatally so. Determinedly. Her whole body bound to a future she might never see but she would give it gladly for that cause. Until Satya, she had nothing else but faith for it either.

If he could not have that for himself, for his people. She will do it for him.
]
dendarii: (Torchwood_106_0258)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-24 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ Sorry, Lakshmi. Normally he would drift more towards his mother's theist tendencies - at least enough to take solace in her words - but he has experienced otherwise. ]

I've seen it. There was nothing after I died. Absolutely nothing.
shri: (» are too vicious to tell)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-24 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ She thinks about it for a long while, could that be true? That there was nothing. No she, can't. Simple as that. Shakes her head. Never mind that it was strange to say he had died, and then come back. But what was she but something that should have died that persisted otherwise? ]

Then you had not finished this life.
dendarii: (frakkingcylon 189)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-24 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
... Mm. That may be so.

[ If there is such a thing as a soul, then perhaps it was frozen too. ]
shri: (» but if we go we go together)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-26 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She smiles it, not happy, but a smile nonetheless, wistful - for the times she watches him and sees... something else. She isn't sure, an unnameable life on the tip of her tongue. Huge and full. An appreciation she had forgotten after so long. ]

It must be. How else will you find me in my next life and make an honest woman of me?

[ Teased, sad and sweet in the same breadth - the only way she knows how to speak of the future. That she will die, of course she will, but when she does - well, she trusts him to find her then. ]
dendarii: (solpadeine118)

[personal profile] dendarii 2017-05-27 10:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ He has a whole life that isn't here. A whole future full of important things he has yet to do. He can't languish here ...

Not that he feels any of that right now. ]


I would hope it's a bit early to talk about next lives.
shri: (» i'm done with it)

[personal profile] shri 2017-05-28 01:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[she hums there on that thought. It isn't kind, but in her own way, it gives her comfort in the face of such destruction. Whether that be divine fire, burning cities or the grip of a Lycan's claws. Because when else? When else but as it seemed all hope was shredded.

Shrugs in a lift of one shoulder after a moment. Her face towards the flames, the hair all but gone now.
]

Is it? I find it.. Freeing.